I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you

I’m sorry you weren’t warm enough

I’m sorry I didn’t say good bye long enough before I left you

I’m sorry I hugged okie more worried I was going to lose him but thought you were going to be ok

I’m sorry I took okie and Toby away from you

I’m sorry I couldn’t fix your leg

I’m sorry you didn’t get to be a cow

I sorry I couldn’t help you

Im so sorry

But I loved you so much and I hoped that was enough

But it wasn’t

And I know you where just a cow but I still loved you like a pet

And I’m so grateful for all the memories you gave me and there are so many

Like when we put a saddle on you and you wouldn’t move so we hit you with the golf cart ( lightly )

Or when I buried you in the straw one night because I thought you would freeze if you weren’t in the warming shack

Or when me and Ella would take the tagging marker and write on your hooves to give you tattoos

I felt so bad for this one, but you were being a butt when I feed you and okie with your buckets and you would drink faster than him and when you finished you would head butt his bucket so I had to kick you away and you didn’t care though – you’d try your hardest to get more milk!

And your eyes, they always looked so big and dark it was like they were looking right into me

I also loved when your head would always perk up and you would moo at me whenever I called Mill lily lily and only to me not when anyone else did it … it was like you knew it was me

And remember the time when I took you you to whipper snip around the old tractor and mom thought it was so funny but I thought it was smart because you didn’t eat her flowers but you ate the grass plus then you got fed!

Millie im so sorry— i wish you could have stayed with me longer little heart ( as Clara called you)

I love you and I’m sorry – Pip 💕

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xsQxSsJHzgA